I woke up with the sun shining as if to welcome a new day of my life. Today's probably gonna be one filled with sun and fun. Only I'm cooped up in at home and the fun's probably not beinning till I'm soaking in the company of my friends. Cheers, Gab and Sherlyn`. A guy, or girl, could never ask for better friends than you two.

Although this morning was bright and sunny, marking a new day, I couldnt help getting a horrid feeling right at the bottom of my stomach. It felt as if it would puke out anything I ate. It was the feeling of guilt.

I shouldnt have readily agreed when my sister asked me out for a movie with my ex and his sister, one of the few younger people whom I'm close to. As much as I had wanted to see him, I knew it was wrong. Just a couple of days back, I remembered telling Joshua I wanted to jio him back. I had just agreed to go out with Joshua one-on-one on Saturday, and there I was, jumping and screaming with the thought of having a chance to see my ex. Sherlyn` couldnt have been more right. I have not gotten over Benjamin. I mean, think about it, I was in the most wonderful relationship I've ever had, and it was over in 2 months. I didnt want to accept it, and was waiting for 4 months. Another guy came along, but he's vulgar but also rather good. I couldnt have just forgotten Benjamin in those couple of weeks I was dating Joshua.

Its insanity I tell you. I know Benjamin is a better choice, but the fact is, he'll never come back into my life. I dont stand a chance against Eunice.